My name is Rosemary, I am 53 years old and an Australian. I am housebound due to having Multiple Sclerosis. I also suffer Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Depression. I'm married to Russell and have two adult daughters. I am no longer able to drive or indeed go anywhere on my own due to my illness. I was a Registered Nurse for 30 years until my physical health broke down. I was bullied and harassed at my last 2 jobs. I got very little if any help and I often suffer flashbacks of what I went through. I was diagnosed with MS in May 2005. It has been a difficult adjustment.
I started this journal in December 2006 and I have made every attempt to share my life, my experiences, my feelings good and bad..... I have tried to be a REAL friend here.... and for the most part I have found some wonderful friends.
Sadly I discovered today that there are LJer's out here that only want to be entertained, they only want fairweather friends and through being bitter and cold they have forgotten what compassion really is. I feel really sad about this and so I decided that I was going to make sure that the bitter cold-hearts do not enter my safe haven.
I do not feel that my posts are totally miserable, I try to remain a human being first and foremost. So if being human or real offends you...... please leave and read Pollyanna..... I'll be quite happy for you to play the GLAD game if that is what you want. Being human I have bad days, I have good days.... and yes I have dreams.... which I realistically know will only stay dreams. Allow me the human privilege to wallow in misery if I so desire..... or laugh and cheer in gay abandon.
I live in the real world and I'm happy to say that my friends do to. I'm not going to unfriend you if you are depressed, in pain or in trouble, I may not be able to help you but I will not chill you out of my bitter grey World. I was told today that I was full of 'Poor-me's' like Eeyore in Winnie The Pooh so Eeyore is my partner in gloom.... poor soul.
I am sad that so many people have ice over their hearts, no tolerance for others and no compassion. I am sad for them because they are the ones in pain. They want to control the emotions we feel, what we share and do not share.... they think they have to teach us to play the GLAD game...... just so they don't have to know! Only with compassion do we grow and by tolerance we learn.
I have bad days when I cannot write or add comments.... but I will always read the posts. At first I wanted real friendship.... I still do, but it seems that people want to unfriend and befriend new people all the time. As I was new to LJ..... I was taken in and I got hurt when I was un-friended. However I am prepared to accept that now.
I want friends in the forties up..... come and be a real friend!